parties, facebook, and guilt
Last Friday night, I went to a party at UCSD for a friend’s birthday. She turned 21 and of course a party was not without people getting intoxicated and acting dumb. I took a lot of pictures and I was not afraid to post them up on facebook until someone reminded me that my dad is my facebook friend.
As I opened the photo album, I had to block my dad from my album. I didn’t feel right doing that. My pictures are not outrageous or scandalous at all, but I suppose I am just worried about the reactions that my dad will have when he sees this kind of pictures where my friends and my face are all glowing and shinning.
A day after I uploaded the pictures and blocked my dad, I suddenly remembered that my dad’s friend is also my friend on facebook. If my dad’s friend talks to my dad about this party that I went to, my dad would probably feel really disappointed in me as I have deliberately blocked him from a part of my life.
I know I can always set a photo album to completely private for everyone except for the people in the album, but at the same time, I feel like I should have nothing to hide. People in college drink and have fun. Plus, I didn’t do anything stupid or irresponsible and the atmosphere of the party was comparably innocent and clean.
Though for me, I guess it is unusual for me behave this way and post this kind of pictures. I am a devout Christian and I have a lot of Christian friends that are strictly opposed to drinking and partying. However, I just feel like having a little bit of fun during special occasions is not something bad. But pictures are worth a thousand words. I know that when some of my friends see a picture that involves a mere bottle of beer in it, they would immediately associate it with “debauchery” but nothing else.
Therefore, as much as I had a lot of fun during the party, I can’t help but let my fear of people’s judgment and disappointment overwhelmed and burdened me. As I had spent a long time in college standing firm to the principle of not drinking, the last thing I want people to think is that I am just a hypocrite. However, there are just joyous times like this when I just couldn’t help it but to let loose, act my age, and have fun with my close group of friends.
Did I do something wrong? If I know that I didn’t, why do I still feel so guilty and burdened? Perhaps, I simply cannot afford having such fun because I am too concerned with what other people would think of me and my principle. Perhaps, I should just continue to be infallibly good and stick to what people have expected of me. Maybe that way, I might feel better.
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Frank M, just curious, are you going to stop using facebook as soon as you have a kid? come to that what about whenever the next social craze gets invented, should you start using it, after all you’ll be older than the kids who join up to whatever it will be, hang on though, just remembered, the internet was created as a communications tool, so what are you doing using old fart stuff. Grow up whiney boy.
P.S. If his dad needs to get a life because he’s on facebook, then so do you. :)
no evidence + party up
You are such an overwhelming pansy, get over it already.
dont feel guilty mr.cranberrytree, tell your dad to get a life .
tell your dad to stop trying to be cool and get rid of his facebook. im sure he uses his facebook as an excuse to be “cool”.. at his age he should be popping a viagra once in a while and fucking your mother more often!,rather then being a fag and using the internet to be friends with his son.
Guilty by association.Chances are you shouldn’t have been so camera happy where you might comprimise yourself.Did you really need photos?Welcome to big brother………..